A Little Less Mrs. Smith

Can someone please kick me right in the butt please? I always do this. I start off doing good, then I make a couple mistakes and think F* it, I am always going to be fat, who cares? I need to care. I messed up yesterday and already today. I am going to finish the day out on my best behavior, and start again tomorrow. Every day is a battle in this war.

I am going to be down 2 pounds on Sunday’s weigh in. I need to be!  Best behavior the rest of the week! Scouts honor!

Someone help me stay motivated!

-Nicole

Today I weighed in at . . . . 247. The same as last week. Better then a gain I guess, but I will admit I was little bummed. I might have messed up a little bit on Friday and Saturday but over all I am exercising more…oh well next week it will go down. I would like to lose 2 more pounds and be at my first mini-goal.  I alrady have my 2nd mini-goal lined up, 238 pounds, which is pathetically what i weighed when I got married.

I always type a blog and then cannot post it, I always get a 502 error, so I am hoping this works.  I hope everyone in the Valentine’s day challenge is sticking to it! (I am down 5 pounds!)

I have a count of 9 people in the Valentine’s Day Challenge.  I have 2 people that still might send me a weight!   Great participation.

I have been doing well.  I have been riding the exercise bike for 15 minutes 4-5 days a week, doing 6 minute abs when I can, and doing some hand weight exercises while keeping an eye on the girls.  I wieghed in this morning at 247! Down 5 lbs and down 9 pounds total! I am psyched! I am down a bunch of inches too, I took measurements December 5th and re-did them yesterday. I am happy my hard work is showing results, and I am glad the breastfeeding is helping me lose quicker!

So far we have 6 participants in the Valetine’s Day Challenge. We are just tryingto lose 10 pounds by V-Day. If you want to join, please send me a message or leave me a comment with your starting weight.

I weighd in today at 252 up a pound from my sneaky Tuesday weigh in last week. I made my husband put the scale high up in the cu[pboard so I only weigh in on MOnday. That way I can actually besurprised whatever the outcome.

my big “A-Ha moment” came today when at work everyone was getting psyched up for a big breakfast spread we were having from the banquet room, eggs, sausage, bacon, ham, home fries, muffins, donuts, the works.  I suddenly realized I did not need that food. It would not make me happy. It would not help me reach my goals. It would not make me love myself when I looked in the mirror. I ate my apple. I did so good today eating wise. I am going to finish up the day with a cup of tea with fat free vanilla creamer and splenda as my ’sweet treat’. If only I can remember that “food does not equal happiness” bit from now on, but at least it is a start.

Good luck everyone! Hope to see less of you soon!(Get it, its pun-ny)

Nicole

Let’s get the New Year started off right. Let’s try and lose 10 pounds before Valentine’s Day! If you are interested, send me a message with your start weight. When we  get to V-Day we will see who loved themselves down 10 pounds!

 -Nicole

(You canleave a message in my comment box or send me a private message on my front page!)

The week in review:

•  I did really well over all changing my lifestyle.
• I have eaten breakfast everyday. Weekends I make hot breakfast like eggs or french toast, and I still make it but cut my portion in half.
• Done well drinking my water.
• Exercised 5 days this week, and that is even after I twisted my ankle on Tuesday night.
• If  I ate something “bad” for a meal I cut back my portions.
• I lost 5 pounds so far. I weigh in Monday. The weekend hasn’t been perfect so I am a bit nervous.

Next, I want to add that this is the first time I have ever watched the Biggest Loser. I really love it. I cry multiple times through the episode and feel motivated watching them change their life.  When the orange team Mom says she is the Mom that drove her kids to fast food restaurants in between him playing video games I thougth I don’t want that to be me!  The halls of horror or whatever they went into made me sick at how much junk I eat.

I was starting to feel down about this. Like I feel so gun ho one minute and the next I feel like it is impossible. I don’t want to die young in food overdosed suicide. I don’t wnat to have a heart attack. I want to do this. I keep looking at stuff weighing 5 pounds, like 5 pounds of mayo at the restaurant I work at, I lost that! I have a far journey and i need to keep my head up. The only person that can stop me is me, right?

Today i went to a birthday party for a girl in Pammy’s dance class. There is a mom there that if she weights 120 pounds I would be shocked, she joined weight watchers. Poeple are always harder on themselves but I wonder if she thinks she is huge, what am I? A blimp?

Anyways when I start getting down I pull out the scrapbook I just started  and look at my tiemline of success I made. There are alot of things I want to look good for so I need to get my butt in gear. (thanks again for that idea val)

I think I can, I think I can, I know I can, I will, I am,

Nicole

I lost 4 pounds from my start weight in the last week. I am so happy. I really am doing it this time. I can see so many changes in the mirror. I need to keep up this level of dedication.

Go me!

-Nicole

Today I am going to rate my day is just okay. I would give it a B- eating wise but still way better then I was. I am beating myselfup over a candy  bar, but at the same time I ate a way smaller dinner than normal and I am not eating again tonight so I will stik with the B-. LOL I hope everyone is staying on track!  I won’t be exercising tomorrow but I am sure I will on Saturday, that makes 5 times this week if I do it. Woo hoo!

I am haing a good day today. I am going beserk on drinking my water. I have to pee like every 2 minutes.  I rode the exercise bike for 15 minutes and while watching the Biggest Loser did some hand weight exercises until Danielle lost her patience with the exersaucer.  All day my eating has been exceptional for me, and at work  I ate half of what I normally would eat. My weigh in on MOnday was 258, but hopefully next Monday my weigh in will at least be back to 256 or below. I am trying to not eat anything the rest of the night hopefully I make it!

I am proud of myuself for starting to ride the exerfcise bike for 10 minutes in November. This weekend I kicked it up to 15 minutes. I am so partied out I am glad it is another year until Christmas! 

I began working on my weightloss scrapbook. I made an oepning page with letter stickers with the title of my blog and then my road to success timeline.  I’m excited. I feel ready for a change.