A Little Less Mrs. Smith

We put a bid on a house. The lady rehjected it. I am so stressed. I ate chicken fingers and onion rings. Are you kiddingme? do I never learn anything? Tomorrow is a new day (and the Xmas challenge weigh in)

Next week I have the work week from HELL. I usually wrok about 28-32 hours a week but next week I am going to have around 50 maybe more.  I hate to be a whiner but I am dreading it.   My exercise is going to ake a hit next week.   I am going to shoot for working  out Sunday (Maybe), Monday, Tuesday, Thursday, and Saturday (maybe).  But I am not going to stress about next week this week. This week Ia m going to keep on keepin’ on.  

My open house was a JOKE  and I am really disappointed.   Okay enough whining.

-Nicole

I got that book, 100 days of weightloss. At the beginning it talks about if you are  “comitted” or “interested” in losing weight.  How if something better  comes along you immediatly lose interest in your program and that is what happened to me today. It is such a shame since I am trying so hard to be comitted that a family party could leave me hanging. I ate my healthy breakfast, my healthy lunch, and then totally lost it.  

But instead of beating myself up, I am dusting myself off. My exercise has been on point all week and my eating has vastly  improved overall. Today I did the Leslie Sanson One mile Jog. Plus I lost a pound, making me be down 27 pounds so far. Closing in on the 30 pounds lost mark.

Off to catch up with everyone.

Goodnight,

Nicole

Hi guys. Been having a hectic summer and it doesn’t look if it id going to ease up. I dn’t know how Ray and I are going to afford it financially with out running up our creditcards. We have parties every week. Birthdays, grads, weddings, etc. It is killing me. 

My eating is going well mostly. Exercise is still good. Open House is Sunday please pray someone wants to buy my house. LOL!   Maybe it will be better if we wait?

The healtheir choices is really helping me. I wieghed in at 230 pounds today. I am elatated!  I will catch up with everyone later.  I need to go for a walk!

-Nicole

 HI everyone! I went to the nutritionalist last week and it went really well. Her name is Kari and she was super nice, understanding, and informative. She turned everything that I told her, all of my weight set back excuses and turned themaaround so I could see them from a  new light.

 My eating plan is simply eat when I am hungry, always eat breakfast and eat more fruits and vegetables. I am also trying to use substiute healthier foods for bad food. I am looking at every  meal and making choices to either eat well or not eat well. When people offer me something I shouldn’t eat I say “I am trying to make healthier choices, no thank you” and it is working. At dinner I am always having a vegetable and eating it first to start filling me up.

 Other teams be scared because unless I get Aunt Flo, this heartbreaker feels a good weigh in on Saturday’s Horizon.

Buddy Slim gives me a place to whine and moan. A place to celebrate successes, to find help when I am stumbling down the road. It has given me the support I needed through the people on here to pick back up my motivation when it gets lost in the day to day shuffle.  The resourses on here are great, the people are even better. I  have found a group of buddies in the same boat s me just at different points of their journey down the river.  Julia, Rebecca, Heather, Chrisie. and  many others.  I commect with them over Faith, over having kids and trying to lose weight while keeping up with the offspring, with just the fact that we are plain old tired of being fat, and that we alls tumble and need help getting picked back up sometimes.

This place is a touch stone to keep me focused and to help keep moving in the direction I want to be moving in!

Honey I’m hommmmmmeeeee! I got back from the lake last night, spent the day unpacking, doing laundry (3 baskets sit behind me waiting to be folded), and uploading pics online from everything that has been going on.

Last Saturday we had a Fam Reunion, then I worked like 30 hours from sunday-Tuesday, Wednesday I spend morning until night at idlewild, came home and spent all day Thursday getting ready for Canadohta. We had a great time at the lake.  The girls loved it. Pammy didn’t want to leave and Danielle was pumped to get home.

This is us at Idlewild, can you believe that skinny thing in the green is my sister? She is blessed because I was already obese at her age! Idlewild was tons of walking and we got plenty of exercise at the lake. The girls were in the bike parade and loved it. Which was a good walk for me.

 (Bikes all decked out for the 4th)

My moods have been swinging but tomorrow I am getting back to work, back into the swing into things, and going to the dietician.  That is right folks. I am getting this horrendous eating under control.  I  finally got 100 daysof weightloss out from the library, and of course it was week rental, but I liked it so I bought it and it will be at the house this week.

So the pool thing-I decided I am going to use that feeling to keep me away from foods I should not eat.  If you do not know about the pool thing, go back two entries to one title Humiliation.   I want to be in the low 220s by the end of summer.

So that is it. I am home, motivated, relaxed, and happy.  I caught up with your blogs today and I am pumped for everyone who had losses.

Down with the pounds,

Nicole

Thanks for all the support on my last entry. I would like to say that today went great  but food wise it did not. I will be away until next week(sunday or Monday folks), and I am hoping to come back here a little less pathetic then I am leaving.

Really I cannot say thank you enough.

Nicole

So right now I am lost not dieting. Still exercising. But after last week of the exercise bike breaking,  I have felt like crap. But on Saturday is Ray’s family reunion, most of which whom I haven’t seen since January surely they will notice Ihave lost 20 lbs……not one person noticed. Ugh I was bummed. Then Pammy is begging and begging to go swimming. I go to get in the pool….and the plastic ladder breaks, one of the rungs. Are you kidding me? We had gotten there early and only Aunt Kathy and Uncle Bill were over there, but come on now. I LOSE 20 pounds and I am now snapping plastic?  Ray’s 3-Mom cousins whose kids are all older than me were wearing bikinis and I am in my skirted bathing suit. I am just swimming in poor me today.  (I better not break that ladder getting out of the pity party pool). Plus I keep thinking of when any of Uncle Bills kids ask what happened to the ladder and they tell them……how embarrassing.

So instead of trying to use this horrificly mortifying  event to moticvate myself, I am comforting myself with food. I hear this voice in my head saying “Stop what are you doing!!!!” But then I shove something in my pie hole and the voice gets softer.

On top of it one of the nephews who is about to be 13 had a growth spurt, and Wendy (who off and on has a small weight problem but looked fab) is telling him how fat he is getting. “Look at that chub” At New Years the same nephew was squeezing on the couch and him and his twin sister kept calling each other fatso (Both are really tiny)  and it makes me feel awkward. I mean if that little bit of belly on a 12 year old is Fat, what am I? 

 I am crying and pathetic, and hating myself so much it is beyond crazy.  I have to go to work AGAIN.